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I remember everything as if it were yesterday…

No more love. No more hope. No more tears. I’m left broken and empty.

Cant wait to get out of this hellhole i call a home.

It’s broken. Shattered. …time to let go.

Broken. So Broken.

It breaks my heart to see that the person that seemed like he had everything going for him was never really there…I need someone to help me up and let me know everything will be alright… i need someone to fix me because I just feel empty and broken…those are really the only words to describe me right now..empty&broken.

i give up.

feel soo suffocated.

where did things go wrong? i lost a friend.

if my mom bothers me about college, scholarships, and my grades again im going flip sh*t. its sooo beyong annoying…im an honors student, i get good grades, ranked pretty high at school and i keep my work up, so she needs to lay off. i really dont need the pressure and stress shes adding. iknow it concerns her and she only cares, but seriously, back off…its college..this is my future, you dont need to tell me its important, i KNOW its important. you dont need to put more stress on me when im already freaking the f*ck out.

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Seriously, you’ve changed soooo much. I dont even know who you are now. The boy I fell for is no longer here… I keep trying to hold onto who you were and its sad to know that, that guy isnt here anymore. You’re different; youve changed, and I dont know you. not anymore. =\

me; …yeah, i sleep with my teddy bear, my monkey, and another teddy.
you; can i have the teddy?
me; no
you; can i have the monkey?
me; no
you; can i have you?
me; *blushes over the phone…*
…guess you never really wanted me, guess you didnt really mean it…

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we would stay up all night, talking on the phone. we would talk so long that you would fall asleep, wake up, and tell me about your dreams. you would refuse to hang up and go to bed because you said you liked the sound of my voice. you told me that i was in your dreams and you told me about our future together. what happened to all that? i wish we could have that again. even just for a day, id hold onto that day forever. i miss you, but obviously you dont feel the same way…all those lies, each one of them cut me like a knife to the heart.